Today was a fun day. We had a great time making fun of heather. As she was a laughing stock! hahas. It started when she hit her hand against a guy. And she started whining that her finger hurts. Then Alex and Chao Zhong started calling her a chi Wa Wa! Then they started to sing the Chi Wa Wa song. Some funny things i said was that i said to them that, i thought chi Wa Wa should be small, then i say her a fatty Chi Wa Wa. then everybody laugh like crazy! After that we start a bbal match, in the match, heather was doing a layout. Then i shouted, WOW, Fatty Chi Wa Wa can really fly and play bbal. then everyone laugh again. i laugh until my teeth gonna drop out. some of them laugh until their face went red. i play quite well then before today, because i was wearing shoes!! hehe. =) My darling says that wearing shoes to play wont hurt mt knee caps. I gt listen to him hor! hehe. While we are gonna to start a new match again, i had gone haywire already. When i got the ball, i was dribbling to clear the ball. then when i turn back to them, i gave them a big wide retarding smile. then dunno why all laugh till cannot stop. make me laugh also. then we all was crawling and tossing on the floor. Omg! Just cant stop the laughter. Then my dad came to the bbal court, and i walk to him, to take MONEY! While i was walking towards my dad, i heard heather saying that as a sister i didn't help her, Then i shouted to her back with my both hands up and said, Ji Tao ni you bang gou wo MAN!! hahahas. then everybody laugh again. After all this laughing hours, Heather, geraldine and me decide to go 848 kopitiam to eat. So freaking hungry. i ate Western food. yummy! i noe is fattening, but i just cant resist it! hahaha After that we went to the fruit stall to buy my favourite drink and that would be Honeydew Juice!! :) Then we walk back to the basketball court to slack and play songs. We took turns to play our favourite songs. Then we started singing here and there. Gt some songs, i sang with some movement then Geraldine and heather laugh again. heather said that she was the joker of the day. =P hehe. And that would be true! haha

confused?

i am darn freak out! Life is so confusing. i really dunno wat to do? i wonder hows my darling doing? Should i let go and stay single till i get to poly? Cos my mind is keep thinking of studies and money. Thinking that i need a short break. I just cant stop thinking of him. i am so stress out! No wonder most of my friends go to overseas than the relationships have stopped. Is it because that u had miss the person too much ,till u feel so stress out? i am so fearful of quarreling and the breaking up. The things he had done for me is way too much, and i feel so useless. i am just not good for him at all. i really hope he could become a successful man. if I'm together with him, his and my grades will definitely drop. i really dun wanna to pull him down. Arghhh!!! i feeling like soaring like a eagle and there's will be no problems that you will have to think everyday, every night. Tears had dropped for the first few days till it had none to drop. When did we fall apart? it was you and me against the world. i really love the beginning of a relationship, ask you doesn't know ur partner well enough, and starts thinking of what is he/her thinking. Months 4-6 are really crucial. More than 70% of relationships never go beyond this stage. Now, i noe each other's faults and have to decide whether i can live with these faults. It is now the infatuation stage, when the slightest rift can break the bond. i need to reflect allot of things. oh god, pls show me some answers of what do to next? i am so fearful now!!! i really love him alot!

my reflections

It had been so long since i blog. Was busy all this while, for exams and lots of things. The greatest happiness i had was having so much friends and most of all my precious darling! Days past very fast and we had been together for three month plus already. So happy for everything he had done for me. As i love cherishing, i usually will put all my happy moments inside my brain. As for the sadness and anger, my brain gt a special ability that will make me forget within a day. that will be Happy-go-lucky bah. hehe. =) But i couldn't forget about the sadness of my this year b'day. Because once, i told myself that i must celebrate my b'day with lots of happiness that i could rmb every year. But unfortunately, time have changes, friends also have changes, some had work, some was busy studying, some forgot abt it. And most of all, i had exam the next day and jus gt to celebrate myself, by buying a cake for myself and singing to myself with no friends or even my own boyfriend. Why i can celebrate birthdays with friends by giving surprise to them and singing b'day songs, but not myself? i give in so much great effot to people but i didnt get anything? and sometimes ppl tell me that i'm too kind-hearted that will cause myself to get hurt, by getting ppl to fly aeroplanes. It is because of my character that i am naive or innocent? i feel like trying as much as i could to be not so good to ppl, but i really cant do it. God gave me this gift and i shall not destroy it. maybe i shouldnt think so much, and i shall be who i am. My greatest aim is to laugh as much as i could just to make myself happy and the ppl who surrounds me. Live the day as if it was my last, and i will find each day living for. =)