confused?

i am darn freak out! Life is so confusing. i really dunno wat to do? i wonder hows my darling doing? Should i let go and stay single till i get to poly? Cos my mind is keep thinking of studies and money. Thinking that i need a short break. I just cant stop thinking of him. i am so stress out! No wonder most of my friends go to overseas than the relationships have stopped. Is it because that u had miss the person too much ,till u feel so stress out? i am so fearful of quarreling and the breaking up. The things he had done for me is way too much, and i feel so useless. i am just not good for him at all. i really hope he could become a successful man. if I'm together with him, his and my grades will definitely drop. i really dun wanna to pull him down. Arghhh!!! i feeling like soaring like a eagle and there's will be no problems that you will have to think everyday, every night. Tears had dropped for the first few days till it had none to drop. When did we fall apart? it was you and me against the world. i really love the beginning of a relationship, ask you doesn't know ur partner well enough, and starts thinking of what is he/her thinking. Months 4-6 are really crucial. More than 70% of relationships never go beyond this stage. Now, i noe each other's faults and have to decide whether i can live with these faults. It is now the infatuation stage, when the slightest rift can break the bond. i need to reflect allot of things. oh god, pls show me some answers of what do to next? i am so fearful now!!! i really love him alot!