my reflections

It had been so long since i blog. Was busy all this while, for exams and lots of things. The greatest happiness i had was having so much friends and most of all my precious darling! Days past very fast and we had been together for three month plus already. So happy for everything he had done for me. As i love cherishing, i usually will put all my happy moments inside my brain. As for the sadness and anger, my brain gt a special ability that will make me forget within a day. that will be Happy-go-lucky bah. hehe. =) But i couldn't forget about the sadness of my this year b'day. Because once, i told myself that i must celebrate my b'day with lots of happiness that i could rmb every year. But unfortunately, time have changes, friends also have changes, some had work, some was busy studying, some forgot abt it. And most of all, i had exam the next day and jus gt to celebrate myself, by buying a cake for myself and singing to myself with no friends or even my own boyfriend. Why i can celebrate birthdays with friends by giving surprise to them and singing b'day songs, but not myself? i give in so much great effot to people but i didnt get anything? and sometimes ppl tell me that i'm too kind-hearted that will cause myself to get hurt, by getting ppl to fly aeroplanes. It is because of my character that i am naive or innocent? i feel like trying as much as i could to be not so good to ppl, but i really cant do it. God gave me this gift and i shall not destroy it. maybe i shouldnt think so much, and i shall be who i am. My greatest aim is to laugh as much as i could just to make myself happy and the ppl who surrounds me. Live the day as if it was my last, and i will find each day living for. =)