A new life

Obstacles are needed in life to strengthen myself to get stronger and smarter. Every since the bad things has past. I started to look at whats people's mind was thinking. Started to cherish what God had given me that i didn't even realize the people that surrounds me who care and support me. Ytd i watched a show that peoples who have given a second chance to live and enjoy the love that comes. That strikes my mind that, No matter how i changed to be, is my choice to have what i want in life. The people who almost died, pray hardly for God and believed in him. Although i sometimes think that life is so complicated, but i still have to pass through lots and lots of things. The more i go through the tests, the more smarter i gets. Then i wont get bully anymore and stand up fiercely to protect myself. Y cant i just shouted at the person when I'm angry. what make me have no guts to do that. Although i will use some vulgarities, but i just cant shout it out. And after i almost wanted to do that, my angers slowly fades and i started reflecting whats gonna happen if i do that. Arghhh! So darn freak out. No wonder sometime my brain can just burst anytime. hahaha. =P hmmmm. Happiness is my everything. Hopefully i get a new memories and happiness now, When Now is a New me!!! A different Xiaomaomi! Who is more lady? more mature? more pretty? more diligent? more patient? more calm? more fierce? but nothing have changed at all and that would be my laughter, entertainer, my CUTENESS and last but not least my kind little heart. =P hehe. So lets pursue our wishes to life. =) I AM DIFFERENT NOW!!!

hmmm. Am i a useless person? maybe i must gone through lots of things so that i can become smarter. Why am i so easily get bully? why cant i be like a heartless and evil person? i jus hope i can be like Rui en. She gone through so much things and can withstand being alone. Why must ppl understand before knowing wat they have done? Should i be a emo and quiet person instead of the last time, that is always a happy and cheerful one? but i just cant laugh out like last tym. why guys are so heartless? if only i am heartless, i wont be hurt at all. this lesson told me that i shall not be too naive or innocent that love is everlasting or forever.. i must be smarter and diligent in all ways. i really cant stand my stupidity and how naive i am. God please tell me what to do? i dun wan to regret all the time! Just hated being like that!