life suxs

I doesn't belong in a place where i really don't belong in the first place. Cant communicate with different ppl who cant think and is so inconsiderate. Hmmmm. no need to bad mouth me at the back de mah. Just say infront of me la. NOT happy say out lah. need give attitude meh. i also didnt notice my msg mah. Fcuk sia. sorry God. i really very angry now. Really hated myself for being so stupid for not going to poly. Then i wont have this kind of classmates that are hypocrites. I must prove to ppl that i am nt stupid just lazy! shall prove it to ppl, hate being despised. Arghhh! this year so much things and problems! i must be strong! dun want to lose out. i must be in the big post then ppl, so that i wont be despise! Will show them, who i am, as i shall be a different person nw! I am nt childish le! please pardon me for doing that. i want to learn to be dao or diligent. i dun wan to get any problem jus to hurt myself. nw i know how ppl are so selfish and complacent. i am just protecting myself. hmmm. going to sign up for Thai boxing. yeah. and join outside team if i have the chance to go for tournament. vent off my stress and anger.