thinking...

Sometimes some things are hard to understand, hard to show it all, hard to achieve the unexpected. You cant judge the person just by looking from the outside, you cant understand how their minds were thinking. And all this, makes a word comes, misunderstanding. I just simply don't like to be misunderstood, don't like being accused for nothing. although I'm a character who seems happy-go-lucky;
seems happy from the outside;
doesn't bother things that are not important; doesn't care how ppl think of me;
always think of ppl thoughts & feelings before talking or doing something, scare to hurt ppl feelings;
understand my loved sisters well enough, so that i can give them all i can;
wanting to prove to teachers that without them, i can stand on my own, & i can achieve more than u expected;
To survive my life independently; not losing out easily; trying to be a perfectionist.
These are all stress to me, because i am born to be perfectionist, i want things to be perfect in my way. But one by one, it's all causing me to fall, making me feel like giving up life, I'm trying and trying to be the best out of me. i always cool down myself before acting on some things, my brain just cant stop thinking, & understanding why is it like this. going to school is fun, but due to some ppl, I'm gonna go crazy of. seeing the ppl that i don't feel lyk seeing. Trying to be good tempered in many ways, some jealousy can be bear but it doesn't really show out. is all keeping in my heart. making me feel all stress out! i have lots of high expectation of myself. because of the environment I'm living in. sometimes i felt despair & lonely living in a country that I'm still not their ppl. still counted as a PR only. People dun realize that having relatives living in a same country is great, having cousins around, having the warm of being with a family. that's why i cherish friends more than my own family. i dote my friends more than my own family. ppl always take things for granted. Can you believe that Friends can understand me more than my family? My surrounding friends are mostly sisters, i treat them as sister, more close than real blooded sister. i had always want that, and there i have it. 6 great sisters! one bigger than me, the others smaller than me. =) I'm thankful enough to have them with my life. if not i would be lifeless! i'm struggling with my endless life. Cant stop breathing, although there are lots of barrier & obstruction coming towards me.

busy

Hey I'm back! oh ya! i joined a new CCA! haha. and that is ST John! haha! ltr i learn CPR then can give ppl who need it leh!! hahaha! i will eat smelly tofu before giving it to the person who is damn suay loh!! hahaha! jkjk. =P
This weekend was busying working, playing bbal match, swimming and allot of things!! hahas. On Saturday, it was the match with a team that's very tough! not fair at all! they all 5 players school team player! my team three dunno how to play well. somemore we didn't play rough at first! the stupid fat gal bang me and still ask 2 ppl to squeeze me! stupid loh! they all play cheat de leh!!! hit my hand, hit my nana leh! From B cup become A liao lah!! anyhow play de leh! then that stupid referee like pa-jiao like that! so obvious hit my hand leh!!! pain dao!!!! then when i was playing in the match, i shout very loud that, IF I AM VERY FAT, I SURELY BANG HER BACK!!! HAHAHA! then gt once i tried to bang her back! SHE DIDN'T FLY! I REBONCE BACK! WAH LAU! her tension horx CMI leh! i think i can fly to malaysia with free ticket! she bang me there then weeee~~~ haha! watch too much tv liao! =P then peizhuang angry also, almost wan to call ppl come down. heng! ah kor, keep persuading her. then that team came to apologize to us, shake hand with us. haha. is too late~~~ i bogeh~~ =P then after that rush to City hall meet joey for work. first day of work in that place leh! so cool~ at C.H.I.J.M.E.S!!! hehe! 1 hr $7. hehe! it was the easier banquet that i had ever work! is not strict at all leh! no need bun hair, can wear skinny, and wear any shoe that's black in color. hehe! then reached home at around 12 plus. then sunday, went to joey for swimming at tamp swimming complex! haha. Guess wat we wore? hehehe! BIKINI!!! OMG! is the full set! faint~ didnt took photo, too shy! haha! we both were laughing and playing with water. and of cos tanning! so white leh! hehe. i still can swim with that! but scare my bikini drop out, then didn't swim much! hahah! this is the second time we went swimming!! haha. Friday also went to swim but with swimming costume! haha. had allot of fun! now waiting for other sisters to meet me out soon!!! hehe. they having o prelim. so boring leh! hahaha. nobody play bbal with me!!! =P see you guys real soon eh?? =)

school & outing days

School days were great with simply the greatest laughter to go with. i find it meaningful to live with a smile! And of cos a great Joy & Laughter! it lives within me! I'm a happy go lucky gal man!! although i have to get some set-backs in order to change myself but i had make it all through! I'm trying & trying as much as i could to change! better in person~ Every steps, every path i took, i would always got to learn something new. something the really benefits me a lot~ hope that there's more & more of this obstacles to challenge me more & more! and i will get stronger day by day! being a good friend, a good sister that simply cares for their feelings and thoughts! learning and understanding, being a listener, supporter, is a role of mine! no matter how hard it goes, i will not give up! doing the best i can that i will want to achieve. =) life smiles at me, when I'm happy! went to east coast park for picnic and camping on Saturday for early celebration of mother day. i bought flowers for mummy! haha. then Sunday went to bugis with joey. i bought new panties with cartoons! cute leh! got my face! hahaha! oops~ i brought bras too. but didn't put it up. ltr you guys noe what color my bra is! hahaha!