reflected

After all i have hear and listened, i think that maybe I'm taking things to seriously. Taking a small matter that's so little, that i could think until so big. nobody will want to hear the genuine side of things or seriousness of it. i dunno that it will all turn the other way round. being over concern isit wrong? being a person who's so terrified due to some problems i had. and dunno why isit like that. having nightmares and wake up in the middle of the night and shiver.. so cold and lost. with no one to go to when i was going through so horribly. i am just sorry to scare u that day. is really not the way i wanted myself to be. my imagination gone wild and fearful, that's y i am like that. IF YOU WERE ME, in a darkness, so fearful ,and ur best friends didn't treated it seriously that u are really fearing. how would u feel? and when you wanted to explain and tell them whats wrong. and the person ignores u? my dad is going for an operation next month. and I'm scare because.. i felt the same way as my aunt died of liver cancer. i noe i cant decide fate. but it is causing me to fear all the time. I'm shivering and fearing that i will lose my loved ones one by one. i just hopes you can understand.. all i wanted is to treasure and cherish friends. especially sisters! but eventually, i'm okay now. i think u just need time. and i'm having mood swing because i'm having menses, stomach cramp! actually want to msg you for medicine. but i guessed that i had to bear with it. painful~~ i'm so weak now. hopes everything will be the same again.