woots

Somehow felt Exhausted and tiring, eye bags getting heavier and blacker. I hate being at home! Aaahhh!!!!!! if you have the chance to change position with me, i think you will understand whats going on at home. what i wrote in my dairy, anything i wrote inside is due to the same old matters. tired and lazy of complaining to the book. haha. although i know the book won't talk back to me, won't ask me what to do, or even hypnoptize you? so lame~ but really! all i can say is that Friends are better than family in some ways! have you ever wondered why my mood changes while going back home? all this reasons are making me go moody back home. Happpiness are found outside of my small little cage, struggling out the endlessly road, wriggling like a wormy.. reaching for the small happiness of mine. if i ever goes crazy and being laughing all along that's the normal side of mine. being anti-social or emoing had seldom come across my friends. i don't usually do that to my beloved friends unless i heard something hurting or kena scolding suddenly. hahaha! trying to stay optimistic from my stupid appearance! haix! fainting in progress. felt so lifeless going through the same old day.. preferring to have a memorable day each day. woots! hopes time can pass fast during this six month except for b'days! wahahaha! gonna have lots of fun~ take pictures! as much as possible!!

having the urge

Suddenly felt so blessed to have so much people caring for me all the time. (: especially my God bros and sisters. I love being nag and discipline by them. This shows how much they care and concern about me. Sometimes, i always wanted to do something for them, to tell them my gratitude and how thankful i'm to have them in my life. Is neither about repaying nor about wanting anything in return. recently, read some books that struck me in my mind. Is that; ''Doesn't mean only on special occasion, then we have to give them something.'' Sometimes giving a hug or giving something meaningful can be just anytime. It just depends on how conscientious and attentive you are. Last Friday, my teacher show us a movie called Bolt. he wants us to write some reflections about someone who's like the character inside the movie in a min. of 500words. The movie is all about friendship, loyalty, bravery, encouragement as a friend. There's some quotes that are very meaningful. ''Is that never abandon your friend while he/she is in need.'' Of cos, i wrote about Joey, there's really some parts that looked very similar in her. because she really stands out and help me through my tough times in school. There's also some things i forgot to write in my reflections. although the reflections can only be seen or read by teacher. that's what my blog is used for. =) telling something that is rarely been express out, seldom been uttered out. =) Joey Lim shi hui! I'm just proud to have you as a friend, as a sister. She had a kind and compassionate heart. helping out elderly who's partially disabled, helping others of one's own accord. =) Really admire her spirit alot. =D hehe. and ya! btw telling I love you to someone, giving a hug, need not be said to boyfriends only. If you think that's mushy to be said to friend. hmmm. i think is too bad for you loh. haha. sometimes i say that to my god bros, say that to my sisters. and sometimes i gave hugs to joey, and sometimes she also hug me. It is just a symbol of love and care. =) if you are open, you can always tell me the three words by msg or directly, and i'm always open to give u a hug anytime. =) is also a boost that makes you feels warm that you are not alone! haha. So try it out to ur friends yeah? but mostly their first reaction will be, you crazy ah? or maybe, are you lack of mother love? hahahaha. Woots~ stay happy always everyone! winks~ ^^

bad mood

This few days i cant control my anger, i seldom vent it out by scolding vulgarities. Can't believe that i finally scold something out. At home also like this, outside in school also like this! flare up ah! i HATE ppl shouting at me! Hate ppl accusing me for nothing! KNN! if u wasn't my BLOODED brother, i will give him one tight slap! attitude sia! my parents also side him sia. i know i'm always useless to you all la horx! cos you haven see the real side of me! you biase mah! fuck loh! got family like no family like that! i need help also won't go to them! cos they can't help a single thing! they dun understand how tiring i was, during this Fucking I.A! i slept later than them, woke up earlier than them. and still have to worry abt money, lots projects to be worried, and lots of things. i'm also counted working in sch loh! they are not the only one working! then they still complain tiring! WTF. scold me for not helping my mum do hsework? for not washing the dishes! i not maid la hor! is becos i see you give me money, educate me, and raise me then i give u respect only la hor! the most i repay u all back la! this isn't a home i want! that's why Friends, god Sisters and brothers are more important to me! cos they understand me, care for me, love me more than a Blooded family! i'm just tired! i just want a peaceful place to rest and enjoy. I'm happier outside than being at home. the mood and atmosphere changes. tired, trying to be optimistic and endure!

woots. ytd is a bad day for me!! haha. stomach cramp cum kena scolding again by teacher! every week will kena once de leh! but is really unfair to us, unfair for just not getting to know what really happen then kena accuse for nothing. faint! still scold vulgarities at us! honestly i dislike teachers since very young. becos, firstly they are biased! secondly, they always think that they are always right! then they will assumed everything from what they see, then thats how we always kena accused! i'm being optimistic while all the bad things comes. woots! need allot of patient and bearing to do! hahaha. let it be bah. but is okay, anyway got handsome guy to see while working mah. hehe! =P

woah~ lots of things happen last week. the funny thing was that, during breakfast we both were eating chicken rice. while eating we were talking then my hand is cutting the skin of the wing. then Phoof~, the wing fly pass Joey's hand and to the floor. woah. chicken can really fly~ hahaha. then we burst into laughter. haha. then on that day itself, something bad happened. kena scolding for dunno what about ownership and responsibility de. aiya. long story~~ hahahah. but nvm, is already over. but there's some part the teacher scold till i wanna laugh, is when he said phrase like "It's TOO LATE!""boundaries". make me bear my laughter. cos these were songs that we sang out loud in the flight zone when he's not around. so crazy laughing and dancing around the room. =P its quite fun, i enjoy myself making some new friends. and also making a fool of myself by laughing so loud! but i only do that to very close friends. but didn't know why i can feel comfortable laughing out loud. especially there's one or two handsome one sitting beside me. abit spoil image. hahaha! cool~ tml gonna be another new week, and the excitement and stress are all coming real soon. gotta overcome it all. =)

attachments starts. and all i can say that. i'm tired. very tired.. wake at 5.30am in the morning and my sch end at 5.30pm. continuously the same for this two days. attachment in sch, is all projects and brainstorming. i dislike paper work. dislike reading and thinking! it makes my brain go crazy, and make me felt so tired at the end of the day. not to say laughing and joking around. there's no energy at all. and also i'm also frustrated about money too. not enough at all. when i'm tired, I'll simply eat and drink allot to get me energizes. but i dun dare to ask from my parents, due to some problems with. spore, everything pay pay pay! haix~ i'm really very very tired!!!!!!!!!!!!

there's always a good thing in different situation. Its just how positive are u thinking. i nv wanted to spit any complain, any disagreement on blog. cos it will only cause anger and the worst of all. so taking it all up and forgetting it all by my own is better. there won't be any hurting to ppl's feeling, and there won't be misunderstanding or conflicts. Sometimes keeping quiet, being nonchalant is the best solution. people won't get the meaning, don't understand if they just read like this. because no one is seriously trying to understand. so there's no point pouring anything unnecessary. Being optimistic is all i can do, to brighten my days now. in terms of money, studies, and moments. i don't to anything that makes me so regret again. there's just a phrase to mostly all of us, is that 我们身在福中，不知福。