bad mood

This few days i cant control my anger, i seldom vent it out by scolding vulgarities. Can't believe that i finally scold something out. At home also like this, outside in school also like this! flare up ah! i HATE ppl shouting at me! Hate ppl accusing me for nothing! KNN! if u wasn't my BLOODED brother, i will give him one tight slap! attitude sia! my parents also side him sia. i know i'm always useless to you all la horx! cos you haven see the real side of me! you biase mah! fuck loh! got family like no family like that! i need help also won't go to them! cos they can't help a single thing! they dun understand how tiring i was, during this Fucking I.A! i slept later than them, woke up earlier than them. and still have to worry abt money, lots projects to be worried, and lots of things. i'm also counted working in sch loh! they are not the only one working! then they still complain tiring! WTF. scold me for not helping my mum do hsework? for not washing the dishes! i not maid la hor! is becos i see you give me money, educate me, and raise me then i give u respect only la hor! the most i repay u all back la! this isn't a home i want! that's why Friends, god Sisters and brothers are more important to me! cos they understand me, care for me, love me more than a Blooded family! i'm just tired! i just want a peaceful place to rest and enjoy. I'm happier outside than being at home. the mood and atmosphere changes. tired, trying to be optimistic and endure!