teachers day!!

woots. is holiday for ite! but i'm not going back becos i dislike that sch~
hmmmm. actually wanted to see heather & geraldine dance de. but secondly i'm lazy to walk to the sch. still gotta wear shoe! == hmmm. and so now the only thing i'm waiting, is that aunty retard to wake up~ hahas. counting down at that moment. cos i'm freaking bored! thinking of watching movie leh! haha! ytd bbal was fun! i fall down!! omg~ malu! =P cos the floor is wet, and everyone is very scare of falling down. hahahah! like playing ice skating like that. plenty of laughter going on and on! =) and ya! that heather make spoil my chair! wah lau eh! she and me also laugh till crazy. she actually wanna play my piano de. then got stuck at the door when the chair is being taking out. piang. you gotta see the expession of her's and mine! she laugh till she stomach cramp. cos i was adding and adding more things to make her cant stop laughing! hahahah! ==

I was always thinking that if there's a day that come...
Is when all my friends that i known a gathered together at once...
how great would it be? every year down the road, i had been having lots of friends.
every 2years i have a very good best friend! liked, sec 1 & 2, my express friends.
sec 3 & 4, Cindy, rachelle, farah, kamiya, ziqi, and Si ping!
As for ITE, i met a new best friend cum BIG sister! JOEY! she call herself cute retard! == haha! and of cos, i had a new bro call Junhao.
so in total i have two best KOR KOR in the world! one is Chaozhong! one is Junhao.
As for sisters, 5 that are simply smaller than me for 1 year. but we had known each other for more than 5 to 6 years. simply the greatest sisters ever. ya, A bigger one is Joey. she's my nanny,breastfeeder,aunty,buddy,teacher,etc! haha! and also not forgetting blur Darren, and jessica. =)

Although i have a powerful memory, that i can rmb all my best friends/bros/sis.
Just fearful that i might lose them one day. losing contact with them doesn't mean, i had forgotten them. i still miss them and care for them allot! just didn't have the chance to meet with them. they are busy with their new environment, so is just best to sit behind and support them. =) Just thankful, and being emotional!
telling you! I simply love ya! =)

Hmmmm. is Sunday again! yup. morning is already raining! woots. a great environment to sleep! but i intend not to sleep to much! although i slept at 12 plus ytd. As you dunno, a person cant sleep more than 8hours per day. when you grow older ur memory gets weaker or even become senile. then sleep lesser than 8 hours is bad for ur liver. SO... is Best to sleep 8 hours a day. I put alarm clock every weekend. haha! i think nobody will count how much hours of sleep like me! but i sleep too much, i will get more tired and will have a bad headache. then as for sleeping lesser, my temper will be bad and won't think well enough. =P
ytd night cant get to sleep well, my mind kept thinking plenty of stuffs till now i woke up. hehe. no worrys. is something good! =) ltr night gonna play bbal again! =) jianfei time! my arm muscle and legs are growing. WOOTS!

ohmy,presentation -.-

Ytd got one hao xin ren help me tied hair till i cry. Cry is NOT becos i'm touched is becos is TOO painful. okay la. so so la~ hahaha! and ya, that Hao xin ren said to me she puasa~ (Fasting)! then keep complaining she hungry, High metabolism~ == hehe! monday and tuesday didn't had the time to update what i am doing becos was kinda busy eh. monday helped that Hao xin ren to do blog template. haha. she lost her Ez-link card on monday! haha. The funny part was that she cried. cute la~ dunno how to describe. better dun tell so detail, if not she gonna kill me! haha! =P and yeah. today got a presentation for my teacher JJ. i was kinda of scare till i feel like shitting. haha! shhhh~ dun tell anyone~ hehe. It was quite fun this week eh, most of friends and MY teacher did ACTCUTE! OMG~ i passed the virus to them! And is real! yeah~

Early in the morning auntie Joey, standardly meet me at inter. then talk about ytd night and what time she got up. talking and asking the same old things. Cos that aunty nv reply my msg and i thought she was happily sleeping ytd. And ya, as i said is EARLY in the morning... That Auntie, Act cute to me. and also when we board the bus 811 to school, We were standing at a corner. the bus tends to brake and turn alot, and we played in bus BY using our body weight to squeeze each other. What's worst is that my second attempt didn't squeeze her but hit the stupid pole. omg~ is pain dao~ hahaha. that auntie too clever and i'm kind of stupid eh? she step forward and lost my balance! malu~ still laugh so loud!!! herh!!! =P In school did quite allot of stuffs. draw the model for the iBeam, cut out a new model. ya. is all drawing. then reached home did some soduku, finish up joey's picture. as she liked that pic. can say is the nicest picture that i drew for her. hahaha! then make her blog template. is freaking complicated. haha. Yeah. thats all bah. hopes tml will be fun.

my thoughts

what i simply did during the weekend, are drawing, playing bbal, drinking vitagen, going out, cleaning up my room. planning of what to do and taking photo. Zi lian~ hahas. Although i feel like a mute at home, but once i thought of going to sch tml, it brightens me up. But things in school that needed to be done is getting heavier. the deadline is geting nearer and faster than i thought. but sometimes, it needs teamwork to get a thing done perfectly and fast. i can stand on my teacher's position and see what pressure is in his side. the funniest things is that, once they had beening disciplined, they tends to have the urge of doing things seriously. And by seeing the seriousness of my teammates while they were doing the brainstorming. i was quite contented and felt so happy, although i had nothing to do. And also crazing laughing to make them relax. it doesn't matter how much effort you are putting in then the rest. sometimes is best not to compare with others, it will only cause unhappiness for each other. everyone have its own speciality and weakness. =)
But from the other groups that are not in our surrounding tends to badmouth our team for having the most privilege in school attachment. but as my friends said, it all comes with a price to enjoy this. whats great about going to this team i had is that, they all are fun, they simply care for ppl's feelings and also had a great sense of situation awareness. we had a very strong teamwork eversince we join this group. having lunch together, waiting for each other. having so much gentlemen and helpful mind for one another. just grateful to know friends like them. I also felt the wonders of having plenty of friends caring for me. =) thank you so much! =)

my days in sch

 

My crazy times in school. although is quite bored having things to do everytime. but there's always laughter and moments whereby it brings the whole of us laugh. I'm glad that i still got the chance to relieve myself outside everyday.

i'm forcing myself for pretending that i'm alright. ya. i'm kind of exhausted. Firstly thought that, if i was being bang by a car or a sudden death how good would it be. i'm stress and tired. Forcing myself not to cry in front of my friends. but i just cant. sometimes i really want to become something opposite that people are looking from me now. optimistic? being noisy every time? i can understand what is like to go on the wrong side. becoming like Satan and not an angel. why am i still thinking of other ppl feelings when i'm like this? can say, i wanna run away from it. run away from home. really wanna rather staying happy outside than not coming back to suffer. or even having the urge for not staying this pathetic world. I dun wan say out what happen becos i dun wan hurt them by saying what is going through ytd. I bluffing myself, a fake me. getting attention or even memorial before dying? many times, i want to gave up life. because i'm not in a mood of being a optimistic me, just for the sake of showing them i'm strong and also wants to motivate them instead. i dun have the courage to give up becos, i had the thought of my friends. scare if i had a sudden death, no ones will entertain them or help them. No matter how much stress and scolding i had from my parents or friends, i still cant bear to leave them. ya. i'm fearful, i might just die like this, maybe is so sudden that i dun have the chance to tell my thoughts and gratitude to my friends. especially my sisters. is a pity for me rite? i had lost my appetite everyday, someday, i will faint of gastric. or might even suffer of depression. but from the optimistic side, that can help me lose weight. sorry for posting this in my blog, but that's the only place of complain, the place where i wanna pour out. Just stressful for being myself. forgive me for me being like this. anyway, good luck and study hard to those having exams.

Filling the simplest thoughts before slping, linking things that are in my daily life. Yes. my sch attachment are all the same. Just wanna make use of being in school. Dun wanna to regret of losing the times and fun around. this is what daily should be, not being no life. Although it would be tiring after the whole day, but it will be quite worth it while looking back. but i'm also worrying everyday. every single things that are being able to worry. hahas. being lame! =D update again.

brace up

Eventually i don't wanna lose out to this typical society, i tend to look out more of taking more advise for improving myself to be more outspoken. Taking as much knowledge as possible. Sparing a thought and thinking of ways to do something for my loved ones. Having goals in life can make a stationary me. Having dreams in life can help by moving on and on. But i'm still worried of what am i really for? what unique does i have in order to suit in this society? What's really my talents and specialty? Gotta brace up, gotta buck up on my language. Thinking that i shouldn't waste my time so meaninglessly. I had two split personality that really wonders my life is made for. i wanna to be a volunteer in my older days. helping all i can of my best ability. planning to become a person who is more than being meaningful, and having the urge of satisfactory in my daily life. there's always inspiration around. you will understand one day when you seen it from ur own sight. I cant believe i'm thinking all this, thinking of waking up.
sometimes you need to be a audience to people, and listen seriously and wholeheartedly. I simply dislike comparing, it will only lead to disagreement and unhappiness. So why not just look on yourself totally of becoming a better person instead. i just wanna to be a person, who simply have a likings of everyone, even if a good one or a bad one. Just wanna boost up joy and laughter among ppl. sometimes i get influence by music and Tv very much till i tend to follow their style. Becoming emo sometimes becos of my past, listening something related to me. I love the Veronicas. So let me be it and forgive me. I'm just a emotional girl who's pretending every time. i'm looking back to my path becos i'm so unsecured. Scare to have regret for not cherishing the day left in sch. i just wanna change something, dun wanna to have the same steps like last time. i wanna put a smile that simply warms or touched everyone before leaving that sch. there's just lots of thoughts going around me. Just realizing how fortunate i'm.

random picts, that i actually wanted to upload, but dunno my home blogging thing sot sot. so did it in sch. kinda bored in sch, thinking of doing plenty of things this year. changing myself that it shouldn't be shown again. i dunno why. i'm trying thinking that maybe i should grow up. It came to a sense that woke me up, improving my life should be done each day. cant be just the same me everyday. birthdays are coming nearer and nearer. i'm lost, where are all my imagination and creativity? heard lots of music that makes me being more emo type. abit crazy and loud song. its really reminds myself of losing myself, pretending that there's nothing at all. lots of shoutout. i know you wouldn't want me to be like this. you want the optimistic type. sometimes, is hard to be. i dun wanna pretend. lost is everything i can say.

Tml is gonna is S'pores 44 b'day, everyone is excited and happy for tml's fireworks. Although the last fireworks, i get to see was my primary five. i'm still have urge to see it again. But i cant go! haix! my parents so the traditional! i never been on countdown before, never felt the atmosphere of the crowded that brings happiness and craziness. Will be staying at home this whole weekend bah. my sickness haven't recover, so i went to see a doctor again. and one stupid thing i said to the doctor is i don't need MC. haha! ppl can say i'm irresponsible, that will spreads to my schoolmates. but i just dun wan to miss out the fun, or even the last few moments of being in sch. and of cos i dun wan to left my best friend alone in the sch. although she have allot of friends. She will only go crazy when she's a good mood! haha. i think u will understand what i meant of being crazy! hahaha. hope i could recover soon well and healthy again. i very long tym nv exercise and play bbal le. sian!! rotting at home for this moment. =/

Ya. it wasn't a good day for me ytd. morning something happened. and i was crying and crying, was moody and exhausted the whole day. at night, fever and coughing badly that i vomited. but no food to vomit, so its saliva. eeek. haha. maybe becos of my medicine, i cant think well, and cant listen well to ppl's talking. but when i was down and alone, i dunno why, i felt the warmed of my flightzone friends and others that are not the same group and of cos my godbro! they persistently kept making me laugh. And i can feel the care & kindness within them. i was quite emotional after all, msg most of them and said thankyou. =P although i feel lyk telling them in person, but i'm introvert and shy. while it was lunch time, they asked me to have lunch with them, firstly it was nizam, then junhao kor, then they all. when i heard them said that, i was like omg.. they know and understand my thoughts. was also quite touching when we ate lunch together. =) when we ended sch, all of us waited for each other and walk to the bus stop all together. when the bus was reaching yishun mrt, most of them wave and said a Goodbye to me. cos i also seldom have the courage to say goodbye also. haha. i was quite happy while i was otw home. Sometimes, you gotta see ppl from the inside, and yes, i did it. Felt something that i seldom observe deeply before. while i was home, is like plenty of them asking am i alright? telling tml will be back to normal again. all those msgs really touched me, and that's half the reason i cried again at night. and of cos i was wondering that my dearest friend was doing fine or still angry at me? and at night, she finally send me a msg that calm me down. =) i want to say, i'm really sorry to upset u. =) and also, there's one msg that my godbro told me, is that, things will change in a better way, you will never be expected it to me. woah! that really woke me up. =) and today, she and me is back again. although, i was still not well in the morning, still having fever and flu, she came towards me put her hand on my shoulder. i almost want to cry again. haha. in the end i did cried abit, while i was really not feeling very well. she comfort me by asking me not to cry. when she said that word, i was like tolerating my tears again. =.=''' so lame! i'm like a cry baby leh!! haha. but i'm thankful for having so much friends that sincerely cares for me. =) and ya! today she was crazying making me laugh and singing and also dancing, from the morning till the evening. it was like i'm coughing and going mad at the same time. haha. We won 2nd prize for the kite making competition, i had the idea from tv. then draw it seriously!! woots! so happy, i will upload the pictures soon when i get the pics. =) and happy national day everyone!!

There's always an explanation, a reason for what is happening during our daily life. Although things can be so happening and sudden at times, that can really lead you to confusion in what to do next and how to solve the following problems. You can be very exhausting, having the urge to give up, feel like stopping everything and asking yourself why? Dozens of obstacles that are causing you to become breathless and lifeless? meanwhile you can stop being vexed, and don't ever say the word "Give up" to ur heart! Since my life is counted between fortunate, i had been noticing and observing others instead. While i compare my problems and other's problems, mine is just nothing to be alarmed about. thinking that i'm just sensitive and over reacted. but while i'm having problems, the first person you would want to share to, are your best friends. Someone who seriously understand you, and cares for you allot. yeah! Is always a cycle to friends, while they need you, they tend to come towards you, while they don't, they simply forgotten about u. But is okay anyway, this are Friends for. =) You can have allot of friends who cares and asked about you, but having a faithful and true friend that really understand you, are rare.

I just wanna tell someone special is that, No matter what you are facing through, i'm always here with you. i will give it all i can, to pull you out from this obstacles, holding you on in your path. I know i had been telling you the same old things repeatedly, but is all seriously spoken out, sincerely care for you for the best of the best! i understand ur character, i know your problems well enough than a passerbyer, i know what you are going through also. In ppl eyes' you can be imperfect or even a normal person, but in my eyes, you are simply the best! simply the strongest girl i had ever known! =) Ppl can say that i'm stupid, or naive or whatever. but one thing for sure is that, i know there's different religions, some can be a free-thinker or whatever. But for my thoughts, i believe in Jesus. although i dun have the courage, dun have the knowledge to tell you whats going on. but the only motive as a friend is that, i also want you to have the same blessing as mine, i want you to go up with me to heaven to have eternal life. i know you all will think that is rubbish, is nonsenses or being religious! but is true, i really dunno how to explain to you guys, dunno how to talk about God. if you guys can really differentiate properly, you will understand what i meant. Just wanna tell you guys that, if you needed help, i'm always open 24/7 for all i can. =) may God bless ya.