Flawed and faraway from perfection

Ya. it wasn't a good day for me ytd. morning something happened. and i was crying and crying, was moody and exhausted the whole day. at night, fever and coughing badly that i vomited. but no food to vomit, so its saliva. eeek. haha. maybe becos of my medicine, i cant think well, and cant listen well to ppl's talking. but when i was down and alone, i dunno why, i felt the warmed of my flightzone friends and others that are not the same group and of cos my godbro! they persistently kept making me laugh. And i can feel the care & kindness within them. i was quite emotional after all, msg most of them and said thankyou. =P although i feel lyk telling them in person, but i'm introvert and shy. while it was lunch time, they asked me to have lunch with them, firstly it was nizam, then junhao kor, then they all. when i heard them said that, i was like omg.. they know and understand my thoughts. was also quite touching when we ate lunch together. =) when we ended sch, all of us waited for each other and walk to the bus stop all together. when the bus was reaching yishun mrt, most of them wave and said a Goodbye to me. cos i also seldom have the courage to say goodbye also. haha. i was quite happy while i was otw home. Sometimes, you gotta see ppl from the inside, and yes, i did it. Felt something that i seldom observe deeply before. while i was home, is like plenty of them asking am i alright? telling tml will be back to normal again. all those msgs really touched me, and that's half the reason i cried again at night. and of cos i was wondering that my dearest friend was doing fine or still angry at me? and at night, she finally send me a msg that calm me down. =) i want to say, i'm really sorry to upset u. =) and also, there's one msg that my godbro told me, is that, things will change in a better way, you will never be expected it to me. woah! that really woke me up. =) and today, she and me is back again. although, i was still not well in the morning, still having fever and flu, she came towards me put her hand on my shoulder. i almost want to cry again. haha. in the end i did cried abit, while i was really not feeling very well. she comfort me by asking me not to cry. when she said that word, i was like tolerating my tears again. =.=''' so lame! i'm like a cry baby leh!! haha. but i'm thankful for having so much friends that sincerely cares for me. =) and ya! today she was crazying making me laugh and singing and also dancing, from the morning till the evening. it was like i'm coughing and going mad at the same time. haha. We won 2nd prize for the kite making competition, i had the idea from tv. then draw it seriously!! woots! so happy, i will upload the pictures soon when i get the pics. =) and happy national day everyone!!