rain rain come again another day~

Went to northpoint bought my facial wash and mask in the morning after renewing my POSB bankbook. After that went back home sleep for an hour while waiting for heather to go safra. Actually want to play pool de, the people there play so long. then end up start to study at the bowling there. i did some report, and went surfing net. Ate junk food and bought this drink. the packaging nice lah! it cost me 3bucks. -.- Faint~ rather buy one breezer. But under M18! =( zzzzz. gotta wait for another one month!! official 18~ hehe. ya ya. i and heat were stuck at safra! stupid la! Rain so heavily! around 8plus while the rain starts to drizzle, then we went to meet gg. they went mac to study, and i went back home to have my dinner. actually is suppose to call supper. haha! After that, i lay down on my bed and fall asleep. Waited for Princess's message till 11plus. then she finally messaged me! The first qns she ask is...... What size i wear? =.=''' zzzzzz~ i see that msg almost faint back to sleep! hahas. chat with her till 11.45. then sleep back again. haha! Fatigue~ lack of sleep! Gotta do so much things! Si bei sian ah!! ;P

it's friday~

ytd played bbal with my crazy teammates! haha! so fun! Oswald fell down!!!! omg~ cmi! and also Joey also fall down! because i tripped her legs! wahahaha! damn stupid la! she fall down the impact damn loud leh! wah. i at first thought she cried leh! cos she at first nv shout anything. then when i looked closely to her, she was laughing! kinda sotong leh! She's the first victim i successfully made her fall down! hahaha! cant blame her~ she abit slow reaction ah. hahaha. =P

After playing bbal, we did cleaning up at flight zone. That Junhao kor kor, lost his thumbdrive! Made the whole flight zone ppl worried like crazy. Searched the whole flight zone! piang! end up leh! it's at his pencil box!! bloody hell. abit shagg! After searching like a idiot for that one hour, end up it's nothing. -.- over reacting! that Princess la! i was playing so happily the CS then she panick like hell! then bobian, gotta help find also! hahaha! =D knew that the thumbdrive will be found, and still go and panick with them!! abit lame la! And that priness limkopi, kept acting cute today. she was playing yuze iphone and she was like talking to herself with a cute voice. haha! so cute la~ She printed lyrics la! ohmy! you must know that, even she sang how terrible, she's still my friend la! gotta bear with it nor, the best part was that, it rain heavily after she sang so much songs! -.-''' haha! knowing that she stress la! di-stressing herself! sometimes she think too much la! having too much negative thinking liao~ But she will be alrite de la. =D

Finally

Everyone is back happily again. And i thought maybe is time to chiong. that's plenty things to do currently. Gotta reschedule everything again. The only thing i'm worrying is my Final report. Gotta brace up my english. maybe gotta ask advise from my poly friends. =D The only hope i want is that i will make this one last month memorable. Treasure the time left, and counting down to be 18. Although how i wished that, It will be grand celebration. But i guess i'm not putting too much hope. I just bless everyone with my happiness and craziness. I'm gonna make full use of this one last month. Cheers! i wont forget anyone who have the faith to be my friend. =)

wat a day.

It seems like everytime after i solved one problem, there will be another coming. And is repeatly dashing it to me so suddenly. I know i gotta be positive for this time. But is just so sudden always, it always comes after such a wonderful and happy day. No pending to have a happy day everytime. But just hopes to forget the unhapppy things that's over. I cant be down at this moment, i cant. I guess i just don't interrupt this problem. Anger wont helps to solve the problem. Yeah. maybe i just do something else more than being angry. everything will be alright.
Just by understanding someone. keep quiet and smile. cheers! anyway thought of giving something her today. nah. so give her tml. time to play hard and work smart.

Grateful

Woots! cool. Today was cool! played bbal & went to northpoint, just came back. because i got to lose weight. hahaha! my aim~ As i'm going older soon. gotta train on my muscles! hahas.
Yeah. today i went church, HE simply touched my heart. i cried! yes! three times! When we are in our negative times, we praise the lord! =)
This is what learnt today.

''And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for which such sacrifice GOd is pleased''. Hebrew 13:16

Yes he knows what i'm going through now. And yes, he has answered me. =)
I know what to do now. =)

May God bless everyone. May God bring peace to everyone. i'm thankful.

my wonderful weekends

For this weekend it shall be a secret of what i did. Lets put it in this way for what i have done spending my weekends. i enjoyed, i crazied, i shopped, i worked, and exercised. I'm going church soon. will be back at night again. It's the coolest things that makes my weekends worth it. Just hoping for what i did, will help peace for this team. It will goes to waste for some reason. Just not putting so much hope on it. i pray that everyone will be back united again. i pray that everyone will just look forward and forget about the past. No matter who makes the effort more, it does not matter at all. All it matters is our last result. So i'm buying shield on monday, B,8,2. For blocking any conflicts around. hope that they can really understand how much effort i had put it inside my heart. No ones knows, only my group of sisters who was with me. Wishing all the best for everyone. Stay positive at my negative times. cheers. spread the happiness around.

i just want to stop this

It just makes me useless to salvage everything now. it just makes me unworthy to be a friend now. i'm sacrificing everything i can, just to make things goes well for everyone. I just cant forget the sentence that is hurtfully said to me. i know is just maybe anger words. But seriously, i'm exhausted in rushing everything. i'm giving in all my strength, to make things up. i'm losing myself, for thinking negatively. I just want a memorable days in this school. I just want the end of the day of this attachment to be wonderful, i just want everyone in the flightzone to celebrate my b'day with me for being memorable. i just want them to stop quarreling now. i'm in the middle of everyone, i knows each and everyone's thoughts. Its just a misunderstanding. Why cant everyone just forget abt it? why must it be the same old thing happening again. i'm really sorry for what's makes you think that we are just colleague. What i had done and what i'm doing now. Does it solve it now? you said i'm dumb. yes i am. because you're my friend. that's all. i won't be bothering as i cant face you now. for not being a understandable friend enough. i'm sorry.

hurt

i'm carry lots of burden to be a person. no matter how i complain, there won't be anyone hearing it. I lost a best friend and i had pull down others. sorry. maybe i'm not a worth to be one.

I'm really lost and stress. I just wan to solve all the problems currently. why must end up like this? I almost want to die by walking down the road and just bang me. I'm holding my tears now. Hoping to my best to finish up everything. i dun wanna hurt anyone, i just want to be a person who do everything so that, they won't be stress or tired. i can scan everything. i can. all i want is peace for everyone. i'm having gastric now. i really have no mood now.
There's no point telling how sorry i am. becos that person also won't listen.
Maybe i nv was her best friend. Maybe i'm just nothing. I'm useless.
There's no turning back for my wrongs. i know she's still angry now. i feel lyk crying. Becos i'm afraid to lose a friend. I just pulled down some friends because of me. And i'm causing everyone to turn their mood. Regretted is what i can say. If i was persistant enough, maybe, i won't touch the game at all. I'm just trying to help when i realise what was wrong. I was also wondering that maybe i should stop acting like a small kid anymore. Time to change. pardon me, if i gets emo.
i just an attention seeker. i hate myself. i hate too be kind hearted.i hate to be living in this kind of house. i hate SATAN! i hate you! i'm feel like being vengeful sometimes. i'm controlling. sorry.

reflecting~

miss lim & miss kang are sisters! =)



Suzanne(me) 'saikang, long gang, xia~ ping, lynn sister..'

Joey 'aunty lim kopi'

Zakiah 'lynn sister'

Junhao kor 'sleepy any position uncle'

Oswald 'mr tighty pants'

Aliff 'mr grasshopper'

Bing sen 'mr ah tiong'

Soon huat 'huat ah! toothache guy'

Nizam 'gal gal'

Woah~ is been awhile since i blogged. Finally got that feeling that recently people who's around you, are leaving away this wonderful world we are living.
Life goes on like a cycle, where people will moan over the past, where people will lament. And so you feel lifeless, you will regret for not cherishing, and sadness with a pain in your heart. But why not brace yourself being happy that they have gone for good? They have gone to a better place and they will want you to carry on with your life to the fullest. I hate saying goodbyes. But is a natural cycle in our life. Yup. My grandparents maybe will be gone anytime. I just want to do something for them, before they leave me. Always having the urge to hug them, the urge to take photos with them, or giving a small appreciation made by me. Thats y, i treat people around me so importantly.
Firstly, i don't want to lose them. secondly, i want to have the best moments they ever had. Cherish the ones who have been with you so long. Don't take things for granted. I'm telling everyone that, no matter what happen to you, please be strong! and you can overcome it. =)

Life gonna change for me after this graduation. as i'm not a small kid anymore. I will face different kinds of problems. so gotta be prepared.

But the only thing i want to do is that, i want to cherish my time to be in school currently. yes, i think i will cry. cos i'm scare i will never see them again. i dun wanna to lose contact with them. But is the fact that ppl will change. So now, i gotta make them memorable. Leaving this school with the greatest appreciation. i'm gonna do something for everyone that i truely love them as Friends.
God bless everyone. I'm thankful for knowing such great friends. =)
26 nov will be a memorable day.. =)

heather celebration

Celebrated heather's b'day and watched the movie Phobia 2. Woots. kinda scary & funny! hahas. reached home around 12.30. And got to sleep at 1am. Damn freaking tired the next day. My days in school is getting shorter. Really want to enjoy this last two months to be school with my friends. Maybe i wont get to go school again? or maybe i will lose contact with them. i just dun want to lose the closeness with them. Felt so happy being so crazy in school. My mind is currently thinking of some thing. Getting worried day by day.