i just want to stop this

It just makes me useless to salvage everything now. it just makes me unworthy to be a friend now. i'm sacrificing everything i can, just to make things goes well for everyone. I just cant forget the sentence that is hurtfully said to me. i know is just maybe anger words. But seriously, i'm exhausted in rushing everything. i'm giving in all my strength, to make things up. i'm losing myself, for thinking negatively. I just want a memorable days in this school. I just want the end of the day of this attachment to be wonderful, i just want everyone in the flightzone to celebrate my b'day with me for being memorable. i just want them to stop quarreling now. i'm in the middle of everyone, i knows each and everyone's thoughts. Its just a misunderstanding. Why cant everyone just forget abt it? why must it be the same old thing happening again. i'm really sorry for what's makes you think that we are just colleague. What i had done and what i'm doing now. Does it solve it now? you said i'm dumb. yes i am. because you're my friend. that's all. i won't be bothering as i cant face you now. for not being a understandable friend enough. i'm sorry.