Woah~ I'm sick currently! What if i spilled my presentation? What if i change others' reaction? What if i make a despise that shut it's entire mouth off? Ya. I may look nonchalant. But it seriously off the limit. I'm not good at expressing, so i gotta prove it i can overcome it. Just like, it needs time to suits a place. It take practice to speak fluently. I sick because of this projects i'm working on. NO ONE LEND A HELPING HAND?! YOU KNOW HOW STRESS UP I WAS? Argh~ if only i was like a freind of mine, running away for the team, and enjoying the rest of the enjoyment. If only, i never made an effort to find the PDF. If only, i was irresponsible and selfish. I never utter a word at all. Just kept quiet and bear it all. I'm tired of explaining, tired of pretending, tired of myself.
But meanwhile, i saw the care from my best friend. =) My best bros and sis! And of cos others who brewed tea for me. But in other hand i also lost a friend. That's y i never wanted a bf! I dun wanna hurt myself or anyone anymore. I dun wanna be dependent on others and make myself so useless. After that previous incident, i lost the closeness of friends, i neglected alot of things. Confirm, I will lose something while i gain something. So i rather want it all. Not because i haven moved on and selfish. I just dun wanna to lose friendship, i dun wanna hurt anyone, i'm really tired of fearing. I LOVE BEING CARED, I LOVE GETTING ATTENTION, I LOVE BEING LOVED. But maybe not now.
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