Sometimes it takes initiative to build up yourself. I was lying on the bed today for about 2 hours? Thinking and reflecting? Scolding myself? i cannot just wasted my time like this. At times, when i had money, i tends to spend it like using toilet paper to wipe my butt. hahaha! I know myself alot. I tends to do so much for others rather than myself. But a small act of kindness makes me feel more ease in my heart. I don't like to be selfish, i don't like to waste time to satisfy myself, I just wanna do more.
Today i started writing resumes, started writing curriculum vitae, started to think about my really last day to be with my ite friends on 10 dec. Some of them weren't good to me, some used to be very good to me, some was like a stranger for this past two years. As my consciences is clear, i never really hated one of them.
I want to prove it to myself. It's really faith that brings us on to become friends. And i just simply cherish the friendship. As i just want a great memory to rmb them and also them rmbing me. Make a use out of it, making something that tells, I'm thankful with a big heart.
As what i am to be a person who spare thoughts for ppl, that God create me to be one.
I'm also guilty at times. Guilty for what i had did flying aeroplanes. This was my very first time. I just wanna say I'm sorry. but no matter how i go back there, they wont be happy with again. I had made a friend angry too. Despite that, she gave me this job opportunity and i had spoil her reputation. Seriously my mind was fill of guilt. Thinking that i shouldn't back out just like this.
But for my best friend sake, there's no point working there when she's so unhappy and also the ppl there was so unreasonable. I know how my dear friend felt, i know's her intention that day. But the manager just cant see it! In the first place, She's more important than working for them. And also all my sisters and bro!!
I really love them alot!! <3 hehehe!
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