Tuesday, January 5, 2010

these two days




Was out with aunty joey, to find work, window shopping, eat, slack, giggle, facebooking, slacking at my hse, playing. Super missed her for those three days that didn't meet her. =P She really makes a smile on my face with no words out. Super love her! My best big sis in the whole wide universe! :)

As for small sis, Ah heat! Was out with her for those three days. =) Got a small surprise letter from her. =) so alike like me~ =X

Before this happened, i realised that I'm not the old me. After that continuous headache i'm going through everyday. Something is really different than i used to be. My mind seriously freak out! Cant get to sleep! Horrible thinking's, horrible dreams, that changes my mood and thinking towards ppl. I felt so lost. dunno how to explain. history had start again.

Just felt that, my mum was right.
The evil side can control me. Even a small church service i had promise to HIM i will go, also cant get to attend. Gave empty promise to HIM again.
I felt like running away. But i cant face whom i make HIM disappointed in me. Just felt F useless and lifeless. sorry.

i really dun wanna said it out, but in the meantime, i just dun wanna make u all worry. I'm turning into someone who's not really me. alot of vulgar and vengeful thinking in me. I'm so stress up that i cant get rid of IT. pardon me.

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