alone.

mentally i wondering i'm always alone. alone having so much debts. mentally i wondered did i live here to be miserable? a home doesnt seems like what's mend to be, burden its what a family is to be. It doesnt matter how they dun understand me, it only matters for them is money. Friends is another issue. What's is a friend for? i find myself so retarded as a friend. Why must friend in need then contact? why cannot stay in contact? In workplace, had beared so much of pressure and scoldings everyday. at home is the same. I just want a peace at home to rest and sleep. but still why must they torture me still. i'm broke down. fall sick is what i gets, running from work, and alone facing so much problems. i'm tired. totally felt that i'm used to be alone.