Flawed and faraway from perfection

Went to alot of place. marina barrage, jalan kayu, mount faber, seng kang. sorry i had changed. i start smoking again. ytd quarrel till almost my dad wanna beat me again. felt like killing him. dun feel like going home. really very fuck up. today kena scold twice at workplace again. i dun wanna contact them becos i dun wanna vent my anger and hurt u guys. recently i dunno why i felt so vengeful after all those bad things and burdens. i'm sorry to disappoint u all. but it seems so frustrate to be living nw. i really wanna give up but jumping down the train track. felt so confused. really dunno why i felt friendship hurts me the most and stress makes me felt so whirl and totally not myself.