i felt i dun suit this job. a fcking cowling also cant open. guys are liars are jerks! ccb. i dun believe i cannot survive alone. so wat i'm alone. i live for myself anyway. f tired. fcking started to lose interest.

i'm a liar. i'm dirty. fcuk. i'm a cheated. i hate myself.

i'm having alot of courses currently. i like what i'm working on. but if somethings goes wrong its reallly gonna hurt alot. hmmmm. nw i only left with family prob. facing such ppl i really needa tolerate alot. i was hoping to go on oversea work rather than staying here. best still higher pay. and i can forget the past more faster. whenever i rmb what happened last time, instantly i still felt the hurt. but since everyone seems ok, then i jus kept it to myself. actually i gt alot of thing keeping in me. but saying out will get things worst. argh. f. nvm