Saw those memories pictures and videos we had, i was thinking why cant you just forget abt the past. Am i really so meaningless to you? Am i really so bad for the mistake i did? Known each other for so long and chose to ignore me. For everything i did, for everything i support, for everything i stay beside you, am i really a worthless friend who cant be placed in ur heart.

I cried so many times, asking why? Dreamt that you have forgiven me, but yet, when i text u, i ignore me. So hurted that i place no position at all. When you are down i was there for u. Care and worried. But why i get the opposite? Am i like the same as ur friends who only says and giving care by words? Am i lile those friends that will borrow money from u and nt returning? Am i those friend who backstab u and badmouth u?

You might say is all i deserve it, becos u didnt ask me to. Becos u placed a portion in ny heart, thats what i do for a friend.

Starting to felt so tired. Whatever i did, its never been notice. Is like i only did one wrong decision, the judge is forever bad. Is liked i owed the whole world. I wonder why? So many two headed person in this fucking world? Why cant be just a normal person being yourself?
I apologised and i gave in for the sake of friendship. But why? You still being so
Fuck up abt me?

I did so much for you, you never fucking appreciate me! I spend how much i can to make you happy, to go out and happy. I sacrifice so much of effort, you never fucking appreciate. You lied to me, i didnt even confront, didnt even get angry over a night.

Why isit so unfair? Is it wat i get when i treat someone good? Ppl said i overlimit, said i stupid, but no one understand how i felt.

WHY ME?! _|_

Why it is so hard for me to pour out. Why isit so unfair? I did care for others feelings but why am i being treated like a prisoner? What must i do to make it right? You tell me. I never had a chance to explain, i never had a chance to be forgiven. Why? Why am i so tired?
Why can i only type it out? No one understands how i felt. Not a single friend no one also knew i cried! Why must i torture myself? Why am i treated like this?
All lies! Everything is lies! What do i want? Im so FUCKING confused.

为什么我做了这么多没有人看到，我只是错了那一次就被钉死。 为什么我牺牲那么多，没有人看过，没有人体会我的感受。为什么我对人好，还会怀疑我。为什么人家不高兴，我会斗他们开心。为什么我不开心，一个人影也没有。
Why no one see what i did? Why no one appreciate me? Why?