emptiness

Guess im just finding excuses to hide my emptiness of being alone. i wished to have a sister badly, that makes me able to listen, speak, cry, laugh and joke with. Knowing i can only treat ppl like sister to look up on as a role model.

The fact that there will be a time that my best friends will pursue their own happiness & life and will no longer be mine to fill my emptiness and sorrows.

With no kinship here, i felt depressing since young and that makes me feel that without friends im so empty and meaningless. It's so despairing whenever i think about it, feeling so unfair to face this realistic facts! And so i cannot be so selfish having the best of two world, but to lament over it.

i just hope the best for all of you and wished i once placed somewhere in your heart that you will still remember me.

For me, i guess i still have to struggle out of my shadows and accept the fact of being alone.