Been thru the tough times and realized how important to manage financial matters and to take the step out to certain perspects. these few days i've watched a documentary called Craigslist Joe and a local movie called taxi taxi that had inspired me. I'm the kind of person who tends to be very easy-going, having no definite views of my own, spendthift and i ended up being penniless every end of the month. Came to realise how pathetic i'm when i'm all dried up.
Simply no one will be giving you free lunch/treats to simpathise you, life is unfair and it totally suxs when you have to stay at home that you have to bear the consequences and agony of boredness because you are BROKE!
In this kind of state, having the urge to have the things i want badly and blaming myself for spending things that people don't appreciates, when will i start to love myself? it starts from NOW.
Lately my dad had been retrenched and the pressure had slowly came in to me, i just felt that im still so young why must i bear the responsibility so early? but this is the home that builds me, to whom i am now. And so, i needa grow up, i needa stay strong. maybe this crisis will make me change, make me grew stronger and of cause to care for my family more than ever.
Sometimes i seriously hate to work, especially working with tons of people in shifts, because the mouth of a person is so evil that judges just by looking on one side. It's totally ridiculous and words spreads like some crickets, they keep quiet when they see you and make alot of noise when you ain't there.
What's most challenging than having to learn new things the hard way, it sucks big time but still i gotta stay positive and learn. maybe they despised me, maybe they see me as a small kid. but still, i have wings, i can be like a kid and avoid to run away or just quit. i didn't, because im maturing, i learned to bear responsibilities, i learned to appreciate the opportunities i had.
Sometimes having Demi Lovato as my role model is just so awesome, she inspired me so much and made my life much happier. People may judge her from how she looks, but the history among her was not just being a singer. it was the flaws that she battled with anorexia & selfharm, the person she had changed into, stronger and standing up against bullying. Her musics and vocals are just so phenomenon and unique. That's the reason I LOVE HER, i know how it feels to be bullied because i was a victim too. And that makes me a LOVATIC who stands by her no matter what. :) <3
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