Went out ytd to find big jie jie JOEY! and small pui pui heather~ with Geraldine at bugis street. Ytd went to ATTC open house. And bought MAC for joey, and gg bought long john for heat. super missed joey~~ ytd night kept thinking alot of worst things while ah heat was sleeping like a pig beside me. Was thinking what if she wasn't close to me anymore? then tears dropped so suddenly. And i pray to lord. Pray that she will have less burden and problem. Also had a stupid bad dream today! Friends leaving me and i'm left alone. Cant give up to lose anymore close friends.
Also i thought about my future... As the previous post i said that i'm so super helpless to support them. Now I'm thinking that, i should work hard to earn lots of money. get one higher cert that has a higher pay! Then i can bring them go shopping whenever they like, then can buy a car and drive them to work or study?? then earn more more money sponsor them to study if they still want to. i wont spoil this dream, i wont spoil this determination i'm striving for. i'm not born to be living selfishly alone like everyone is. Since God gave me this big heart, i must as well make full use of it. Seeing and observing people being selfish makes me felt sorry for them. asking what are they really living for? Wasting on meaningless time that just make themselves to be satisfied for their own comfort and greediness.
It means alot to take away peoples' problems to myself. Others who just care for themselves and telling me not to be a busybody. wah. sux loh! i dislike this kind of person! so selfish~ but nevermind as long as every small effort and things i did was in my heart, i'm very contented already. I promise that i will make you have a better life my dear friend. no worries~
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